"I want to be a lost poem in a stranger's coat pocket, that conveys the importance of you. To assure you of my desire, to assure you of dreams. I want all the possibilities of you in writing. I want to give you your reflection, I want your eyes on me, I want to travel to the lightness with you and stay there, and I want everything before you... ...everything before you to follow us like a trail behind me. I want never to say goodbye to you, even on the street corner or the phone. I want, I want so much... I'm breathless. I want to put my power into a poem to burn a hole in your pocket so I can sew it. I want my words to scream through you. I want the poem not to mean that much. And I want to contradict myself by accident, and for you to know what I mean. I want you to be distant and for me to feel you close, I want endless days when it's day and... nighttime never to end when it's night. I want all the seasons in one day. I want the sun to set before us and come up in front of us. I want water up to our waists and to be drenched by the rain, up to our ankles with holes in our shoes. ...with holes in our shoes. I want to think your thoughts because they're mine. I want only what's urgent with you. I want to get in the way of the barriers and I want you to be a tough guy when you're supposed to, like you do already. ...when you're supposed to. And I want you to be tender, like you do already. And I want us to have met for a reason and I want that reason to be important. And I want it to be bigger than us, I want it to take over us. I want to forget. I want to remember us. And when you say you love me I don't want to think you really mean New York City, and all the fun we have in it. And I want your smile always, and your grimaces too. I want your scar on my lips, and I want your disappointments in my heart. I want your strength in my soul and I want your soul in my eyes. I want to believe everything you say, and I do. And I want you to tell me what's best when I don't know. And when you're lost I want to find you. And when you're weary I want to give you steeples and cathedral thoughts and coliseum dreams. I want to drag you from the darkness and kneel with you exhausted with the blinding light blaring on us... and..."
What will it take to make or break this hint of love,
I'm a happy girl today cause mum brought me out to shop! :D okay, we weren't supposed to shop but everything i wanted was cheap. Gap sleeveless hoodie was on 60% discount, mum chose it so she was willing to buy it. Black halter (kinda tight fitting) dress was freakingggg cheap. Mum decided to leave, she was scared she needed to pay more if we'd continued to walk around. Got home, slept, dinner at Spring Court to celebrate Uncle's birthday/ did a good catching up with cousin. It's 1154pm, and i've decided i should sleep soon cause it's monday tomorrow= 2 hours of GP, running 4km or more, 2 hours of lecture and 2 hours of chem omg i hate mondays.
I think my current playlist is too sad. On the way to dinner, 1. Breathe by Taylor Swift 2. How Did I Fall In Love With You by BSB 3. Avalanche by Marie Digby 4. Blind by Lifehouse 5. Walk You Home by Karmina And my playlist was on shuffle. It's time to change my playlist, must have happier songs! :D
Cause I can't erase the times that you hurt me and put tears on my face And even now while I hate you its pains me to say I know I'll be there at the end of the day.
Oh gosh, i got to school on time for the re-test. Breezed through the first 4 questions and got stuck at the 5th. I gave up after awhile and started to doodle on my foolscap. But i did attempt to do the questions okay! Bought prawn mee and peach red tea back to school for lunch. I would say today was really productive :D Walked Vic to her bus-stop and then to cheers to fill my stomach and to the 325 bus stop. I should have just tried walking home, i was really in the mood to walk cause it was so windy! Got home and slept till dinner was ready. I actually thought it was morning already, i got the shock of my life when dad said " It's late! It's 8 already wake up wake up! " See what school does to me. It's the weekends yet i think i've school tomorrow. Dad bought crabs for dinner (was the main reason why i went home heh)! I really wanted to head to PP before asking if the girls were at home. I miss the girls so badly, especially this week. Sometimes i don't quite need to say much before you girls understand what's on my retarded and confused mind.
It's 1025 and i haven't done anything since i got home. I played L4D after dinner, my brother was really irritated cause i would only go off after i die BUT I NEVER DID. HAHA. Have been staring, thinking, questioning, doubting and reflecting. But, I'm gonna concentrate on gaseous state now. laterrrr!
